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About a month ago, I had a job interview with Sears. They told me almost immediately that I got the job, then spent weeks waiting to get back to me about when I'd start training. I finally started just last week, and just this morning I got fired before even working a single shift. Apparently I didn't ask enough questions during training and decided that I "have no personality." I have some suspicions that they might have looked at my medical records and fired me based on my sexuality or clinical depression, but obviously that's just speculation. It took me months to find this job and I was counting on it to get me out of debt. The only income I have now is from my Patreon. I'm way behind on my rent and bills and I don't know how to explain this to my landlady. I just wanna cry.

I have a whole lot of things on my plate that I'm stressing over, and yet all my little insecurities keep bubbling back up anyway. I came out to a friend the other day, and even though it went really well, deep down I feel like I've ruined it, and now it's just a slow familiar wait for everything to go wrong. Every single person I've ever told has eventually come to hate me. My own parents couldn't bring themselves to love me, how could anyone else?

So I bred this shiny Drifblim but didn't fully flesh out what I wanted to do with it first. Here's what I've got so far: Drifblim lv. 100 Bold EVs: 252 HP/252 Sp.Def/8 Def. Unburden @Red Card -Recycle -??? -??? -??? Available Egg Moves: Memento, Destiny Bond, Disable, Hypnosis It didn't get perfect HP, sadly, and I deliberately bred it for a crappy Attack stat. It pairs well with things that set hazards, but can't set hazards itself. Suggestions welcome!

Mad props to Drew for being able to void laughing for 18 minutes in one take. Unless it took more than one take, in which case mad props to Drew for being able to eat multiple bags of Red Vines in one go.

You're probably right, though I'm still having trouble kicking the habit of taking her with a grain of salt.

I'm feeling pretty upset and stressed about some stuff lately and a break from some of the internet might be good for me. I dunno. Also, still looking for a job. I've done two job interviews this week and I have another next week. I'm not really sure how I feel about the one I'm interviewing for next week though. It's probably the one I want most, but it comes with some huge caveats.

I agree, but I linked that because it mentions some shitty things that are in that very comic and relevant to the situation at hand. I probably should have just typed up something myself though. Sorry. You know Merus, I really hope that you eventually reach a point in your life where you realize that it's possible to assess multiple facets of a person before you come to a conclusion about their character, or decide that no conclusion is needed at all, because this shit gets real old. I don't have some grand list of who I'm "allowed" to like and who I'm not. I straight-up said that I "didn't know how to feel about her," not that I like or dislike her. I can like Moen's Oh Joy Sex Toy comics without liking some of the shitty things she's said. I'm pretty sure we've had this exact conversation before in private, and it's still downright childish to stick your finger in your ears and ignore that pretty much everyone can and has done bad things and don't really need your help to whitewash them as perfect angels. A week ago you defended Hugh Fucking Hefner as an ally. I dunno if it's just me, but your "argue with everyone on every point" schtick has gotten really irritating.

Maybe put that in a NSFW spoiler, Smart Jason. I'm also not really sure how I feel about Erika Moen, generally. I'd like to make note that the guy who wrote that fucking laughable defense of the game is a Gamergater, tagged the original post with Gamergate, and has been calling for Gamergate to defend Fire Emblem. Ethics in journalism, guys.

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Last night's premium stream was fucking incredible. Also, it's been two years since we last had Ryan Davis. Miss you, buddy.

Mediocre at best. There's no religious opposition against it like there is in the west, but you can't get married and things like hospital visitation rights and co-renting are only being considered in any part of the country as of this February. There's also no laws against gay sex, but the law also considers gay people unable to have real sex, calling it "an imitation." Transgender rights go so far as being able to legally change your gender, but there's still huge problems with it. There's a mention on that wiki page of a transgender woman prisoner who, even having had sexual reassignment surgery, was still being held in a men's prison and treated as male. Culturally, Japan is really weird about representation. Someone I knew once positioned it as "Japan is fine with putting gay people in fiction, because Japan regards gay people as fictional." You see a surprising number of LGBT characters in things, but their sexuality is often played for laughs, treated as a teenage phase, considered perversion, or fetishized for a straight audience. I'm a sucker for trying almost any LGBT-focused Japanese media I can get my hands on, and I can count on one hand the amount of times I've actually seen a happy adult gay couple in anime, manga, or Japanese games. In terms of public figures, homosexuality is the kind of thing that is seen as sort of a... personal quirk? Not necessarily disliked, but you don't want to be gay or have relatives that are transgender or otherwise be connected to it. There's very much an idea that being LGBT is a novelty. The only LGBT celebrity mentioned on that wiki page is Matsuko Deluxe, which is kinda like if the most prominent LGBT celebrity in America were Divine. I wanna stress though... Japanese culture be damned. This is a Nintendo thing, not a Japan thing. There's been big strides in LGBT rights in Japan in the past little while, Nintendo is an international company, and regardless of the situation it's not really a matter of their intentions being misunderstood due to a cultural barrier, it's a case of their intentions being fundamentally fucking disgusting.

I secretly want a deliberately inaccurate Robocop cartoon where Murphy's original name is Robert Coppola. Like how there was some English version of Astro Boy where they changed Tobio's name to Astor Boynton, except even dumber.

Man, I really wish I hadn't mentioned the Fire Emblem thing here in any sort of positive light, because basically the way Nintendo is handling their first openly gay characters is utterly reprehensible. TL;DR: in Conquest version, one of your squadmates is openly lesbian. Female player characters can't romance her, but male ones can. See, she feels that her lesbianism is a weakness that makes her less of a woman, so dudetagonist drugs her drink with magic powder that makes her temporarily see men as women and women as men, which is used as the cornerstone in what is essentially magic gay conversion therapy. In the end, she falls for him, because of course she does. This might actually be the worst thing Nintendo has ever done.

Happy birthday, Canada!