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Yes! I'm there from Tuesday until the following Monday, so I will be around all week. That's EXACTLY what I'm saying. I'm a middle-aged Jew with a daughter, and I work at PopCap.

I'm still bummed and w/e about life/death, but in more cheery news: I was picked today to be EA's SSX guy at GamesCom 2011! So basically I'll be there, playing SSX, interviewing developers and posting it all on the EA website. I'd like it if you maybe checked it out. It certainly was nice to hear today, at any rate. Cheered me up for about 10 minutes, hah.

Sure, count me in.

I used to feel amazed by the size/scope and immensity of the universe. Now I find it horribly scary and depressing. Also, I did get some anti-depressants from the Doctor. Apparently they take around 2 weeks to start working, so here's hoping, right? EDIT: It's times like this I wish I could be religious. Blissfully unaware, right until the very end.

Thanks a lot, guys. As for school - right now, I don't think my fears are directly related to that. I think that my current purposelessness lead to my pondering of those dark things, and lead to my current position. I just don't know what I'm feeling, right now, except from fear, sadness and loneliness. Incredible loneliness.

I tried calling the counsellor last week after I saw the Doctor the first time. They didn't pick up. I really want a short-term fix right now, something to calm me down. I feel scared, sad, lonely, depressed, and I just want it to be over.

Ok, I'm finding it really hard to cope right now. I'm going to go to the Doctor's tomorrow (again) and ask for some drugs. This seems like depression.

Man, I feel terrible for you both Miffy and Orv. I really hope things pull themselves together for you. On my own fuck-I'm-depressed note, I recently (and I don't know why) became incredibly preoccupied with the concept of dying. It's literally all I can think about - It feels so scary, so permanent, I keep having anxiety attacks and my chest feels like I can hardly breathe. I think it's due to the fact that my exam results are released in 11 days, letting me know if I got into university or not. With nothing else to do until then, I just guess my overactive imagination has chosen to occupy itself with thoughts of my death. Yeah, it's not nice. I'm only 18 - I'd much rather have all this bullshit when I'm 80. (Well, I plan on living til at least 107, so maybe when I'm 106).

Was that a conscious decision made even with all of you at PAX, or are not all of you attending this year?

Fuck you both. That would be the best.

Id actually suggest either 3 or VC. Don't really care for SA, especially not it's mouse/keyboard driving/cycling system, and 3/VC are pretty much the routing of why that series become great IMO. Id suggest 3 first, and if you get bored, play VC from the beginning. The setting is wonderful.

Yes, just one.

I will give you no such grant, but I WILL read more of this!

I am cheap, I am!

Because I think I'll get through TGS pretty quickly, I've also decided to take For Whom The Bell Tolls while on my European travels. Hoping it lives up to its hype!

Paperback. It's not like I'm specifically disliking it. It's an ok read, but it's not setting me on fire yet.

So, having finished Wodehouse's Right Ho, Jeeves, I can definitely see why he has such a fanbase. Although its humour wasn't always consistent (I assume it is more/less so in other texts, such is the nature of writing), I thought the peaks were astronomical, and even the troughs were reasonably amusing. The actual story itself was well-constructed, well thought-out, and its conclusion was amusing as a concept, so that was good. I am tempted to buy more of Wodehouse, should any of you have any recommendations? Having finished RH,J I felt in the mood for another easy-going comedy, and so started Hugh Laurie's The Gun Seller. Only a chapter in so far, but it definitely doesn't seem to be anything special. The premise seems interesting enough, and it is mildly amusing at times, but I fear that he's trying too hard to be something he's not. A great fan of Wodehouse, it seems like he attempts to insert similar writing styles, asides etc, and it doesn't quite read as well as it should. A shame, really. Still, I plan on finishing it, so here's hoping it gets better!

Stop teasing us you bastard. (Please)

Hahah, well, when the third member in that trio is a European asshole with motherly issues and a trilby, you can't expect anything too much.

OK guys, leave it there before anybody falls out. I still haven't beaten this game yet, and I really want to, but I won't have access to my PS3 until July 28th and later. Major bummer.

So, now that I have some free time on my hands, I've decided to make a conscious effort and read as much as I used to (which is a lot), preferably books that are fantastic, and recommended. To start with, I picked up The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. First off: I was incredibly surprised at just how small it was! Having heard a lot about it, and obviously seeing of the movie adaptations and whatnot, I had an image of a decent-sized book - probably similar to the length of Frankenstein - that would take me a fair few hours to burn through. Nope, a short novella 88 pages long. That being said, I found it to be a pretty endearing read. I enjoyed the style, the narrative viewpoint, and the structure, although it did feel a little too short. I would've preferred more of the story to have been told from Dr Jekyll's point of view, and perhaps for more elements of the gothic to have been present. I think that was what really disappointed me about the novella: it didn't really scare/shock me. Perhaps it's because everybody knows the shocking twist by now, and apart from that, it doesn't really feel like there's anything too bad. Hyde kills like one dude, and then that's basically it. As much as Frankenstein disappointed me with its narrative style, I did enjoy the actual story being told there. Next, I'm finishing off Right Ho, Jeeves, which I started a long while ago and never finished. Then after that, on Chris's recommendation, I've picked up Umberto Eco's The Name of the Rose, and plan on reading that!

Yeah, I've done that with English Lit in the past. Maths is a lot more difficult though - you either know it, or you don't. You can't make stuff up and hope for the best. Still, looking at things and evaluating it in my head, I actually believe I have done enough. Only marginally, but enough. It's going to be a long wait until August 18th

Not at all; I had a great teacher. It was the exam board that decided to use completely different styles of questions to anything that had ever used before.

/whineypostbeware

Guys add me, I am forever playing this video game. SpeedyDesiato