Twig

Honestly I think it's really dumb to have to carry around multiple IDs for multiple things. I wish I could just use my passport (or some equivalent) for everything in my life.

just watch log horizon you bastard it's better than whatever you're watching right now (the twist is he's the only one, and he's basically an all powerful god, and he's trying to figure out how to take over this new world he's been somehow transported to, also he just goes full on evil - the only part of it that's "mmo" is the ridiculous spell names and the origin story) also it stars this badass I think people see the words "MMO anime" and assume it's going to be like .hack where it's just "it's an MMO but you can die in rela life oh nooo" or whatever. BUT YOU'RE WRONG! ALSO DUMB! SNAP!

Hey me too. Which brings me to another thing I wanna cry about: I have no real friends were I live. In the past I have made good friends and then after some time had to leave (be it because of school or work or lack of work or new work), and so all the people who I might potentially become really good friends with... I don't even get to see. Sure I keep up with a few of them online, through gaming or just talking, but none of it ever goes past the superficial at that point. I watch movies and TV shows about people who have real, good, strong friendships and I'm just like "I wish that was me". Man I have been feeling so down lately, just in general. Well, I usually feel pretty shitty about myself and my life, but it's been worse than usual.

I carry my passport with me 'cause my ID is expired 'cause I was too lazy to get a new one in Dallas, but yeah, that seems like a recipe for disaster, at least until people get used to it.

I've been watching Overlord, another MMO anime (this time with a twist that I'll only bother explaining if people care enough to ask, but I digress).

: D Flying really is the worst. I've considered doing what Merus does and just saving up for first class but the price increase is just too much. I can't afford it. Most of my flying isn't even flying that I've chosen to do, either, it's for funerals and shit, which just makes it even worse 'cause I know what's waiting for me at the end of this hellflight is just a hellscape of sadness.

If it's any consolation, gerb, I'm pretty much the same way. I got my current job through "networking" AKA I went to school with the guy who got me the interview. That friendship developed naturally. But when I first started going to GDC, I was going with the intention to "meet people" and ostensibly "develop relationships" with said people, because that's what I was told to do. It was fucking miserable all the time and felt so fake and ugh I hated it. I only started enjoying GDC once I actually had a job and it was obvious I wasn't trying to get one. Ugh. griddle: I know but it doesn't make it any less shitty to know. ): I'm just saaaaaaaaaad.

I can't even sit on the train/bus seats here in Dallas without performing the dreaded "manspread" that's all the rage to hate these days, unless it's the big open seats meant for old and handicapped people. Not even a matter of pain, I just actually can't fit unless I spread my legs really wide. Honestly I really wish I was half a foot shorter. People think being tall is great. WRONG! Being average height is great, because that's what everything is built for. I am very passionate about this subject!!!

wow i'm so sorry that's awful

Basically what Tycho said. Something can be really great while still having problematic elements and it's okay to like that thing while acknowledging those problematic elements.

i'm about to go to bed angry YOU DID THIS TO ME ZEUS!!!

and what's worse than that is when i have LITERALLY NO POSSIBLE WAY to maneuver my legs and readjust my position without bumping into the reclined seat in front of me and the guy in that seat in front of me stands up, turns around, and yells at me to stop kicking his seat, when i'm in actual real pain because of this shit bag fuck wad who thinks he owns the space i occupy i've never punched someone in the face before i've never come so close to punching someone in the face before i am using "LITERALLY" in the actual real definition way, this is not exaggeration, it actually physically hurts for the entire flight unless i contort myself into an uncomfortable position that hurts for entirely different reasons and also requires me straining my muscles constantly so as to not press my knees into the sharp edged table or whatever the fuck else they have on the backs of those seats i'd be much more sympathetic to the reclining shitfuck if the backs of seats were pillows or something soft and cushiony instead of whatever demonic material they craft these pain devices from

let's just say are you six foot four are your knees LITERALLY IN PAIN FOR THE ENTIRE DURATION OF THE FLIGHT does the person in front of you leaning back MAKE THAT PAIN A HUNDRED TIMES WORSE because that's my fucking life on a plane and every time someone leans back on me, seriously, nothing NOTHING in life makes me more filled with hatred for a human being have some fucking courtesy FUCK i'm mad thinking about it sorry but for real it really makes me angry you have no idea how uncomfortable flying is for me

Hey see if I complain, something happens! She finally said something and she says she's just super busy right now (master's thesis going on) and can't be investing in a relationship. Well, whether or not that's the real reason, at least she had the courtesy to eventually let me know... So I feel better. Not really, though, but at least I'm not angry about it. Bleh!

Even when that was a "thing", I think it was only barely a thing. No one I knew ever called them that.

I've been down that road my whole life, why stop now!!! I've had the number for various recommended therapists for a long time now but I haven't called because I don't even know what to say. "I'm sad." I guess that should work. But for some reason I just can't make myself do it.

Hah, yeah, maybe, thanks. I just... bleh. I'm not good at this in the first place, and I just blehhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I MISS MY CAT. ):

I don't get it. Five times in the past year, the person I'm going out with has just disappeared, stopped talking to me entirely, not even the courtesy to say "sorry not interested" before doing it. This last one, we'd been texting almost every day for two months and it seemed like it was going really well, she seemed pretty into me, which I'm usually bad at judging, but hey she asked me to come to Austin (she lives there now, but was living in Dallas to start, and comes to Dallas like every other week, ish, as part of her school/networking/junk), and literally our last real conversation was me saying I would go visit her in Austin next time she had a free weekend. And then now for two weeks, no response. So I've given up, again. And now I'm just giving up. What's wrong with me? I don't get it.

Miller is Solid Snake's master, right, I'm not crazy remembering that from MGS1? Is that, like, ever addressed, ever? So weird. I guess Kojima loves those long-lasting destiny-feeling connections between bloodlines, though, between Big Boss/Solid Snake, Huey/Otakon, and Miller, and probably a lot of others I'm not thinking of. Also, real talk, Ocelot is basically my favorite character in every MGS game. I hope he shows up in Peace Walker? D: D:

oh goddamnit mike

I started Peacewalker last night, and played a bit more today. I don't think I like it, to be honest... Anyway in the past month or two I've played and beaten MGS1, MGS2, MGS3, and MGS4. They're all good games!

Wait, Spotify forces you to shuffle albums, now? When did they do this?! Anyway I use Google Music and pay eight bucks a month, Spotify has a similar price point, it's less than the cost of a single meal, unless you're really really hurting for money, I don't know why you wouldn't just pay. But then I fucking hate ads that interrupt what I'm doing, if I see an ad on a YouTube video, I'll just not watch the video most of the time, same goes for a Twitch stream, and if an ad interrupted my music, fuck, I'd probably break something.

I likewise don't give a shit about having a million items, so Bloodborne is great! I like the various weapons in Dark Souls, but I am not a fan of the rings and the armor sets do nothing for me other than appeal to my aesthetic sense. I like that there are lots of sets but I don't like that they all have unique stats, so I basically have to stick with the one that fits the playstyle I'm going for, because I'm not and have no interest in becoming good enough to just wear whatever I want and always be good.

Yep, same. Although I do tend to go through phases throughout the year where I just completely stop listening to something (usually because I remember I like other genres, like going from pop to metal to rap to Irish folk to Jimmy Buffet to various and sundry other shit). I usually come back at some point, but... sometimes I don't! Yeah, Jimmy Buffet is a genre unto his own! And yeah I like Jimmy Buffet, a lot, so there.