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Link should work now. Note: Audio coming in in separate ears (tracks) is sometimes a function of certain 3rd party Skype recorders that splits the audio of each person into a stereo but different channel audio track

I started a single person pod, episodes should be pretty short, like 10-15 minutes: https://onewomanspacecraft.simplecast.fm/

There's been research lately that suggests that trauma/PTSD over time can have a profound effect on your ability to use your long-term memory. There's some stuff that I absolutely remember in sharp detail and then...nothing. There's entire huge gaps in my memories from certain time periods that are just gone.

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I feel like most of that piece is pretty terrible at nailing a point and there's only two parts that actually say anything - the part about oppression olympics and the part at the end about social justice conversations. But I also don't think the biphobia piece was saying anything moreso that a smarter person could see how ignorant it was and jump off from it (which Mattie did here). That being said, it still hurts.

I'm glad Chris brought up that trauma victims do sometimes have memories or en media res perceptions of events in the third person because that's definitely something that happens. That kind of 3rd person shot with adult Ani being lead with the molestor superimposed over what would be the child version of herself was actually kinda poignant for me. It's a bit of a heavy-handed visual metaphor that unfortunately feels really true sometimes - that you don't emotionally get past a particular moment in time, even when you're far older.

Okay to drag our discussion over from the Episode #5 thread: I feel vindicated about my early feelings on how Ani's characterization was going to continue throughout the show. Pizzolato is going steadily down the route of Ani being a damaged individual at the hands of men and while I really enjoyed the backhalf of this week's episode - the camerwork was chaotic and dreamlike, the sound design was pretty top-notch and added to the mood, Rachel's acting was really on key, the fact that it revealed what I had sort of suspected all along was a little disappointing. I feel like I see all of Pizzolato's cards regarding how he views a woman like Ani and how he's built her up into a person, without a real consciousness as to how tropey these kinds of women characters are at the basement level. It sucks because I really love Ani in spite of it, mostly due to the fact that I feel like I have a lot of things in common with her. This kind of character is the most you get in certain TV quarters, barring something like Twin Peaks or other such things. It's a step up from his lack of writing for women in the first season but if this is what we get now, I'm not super happy about it. I know no one is going to agree with me about this, but as someone who has the same kinds of abrupt and walled-off feelings that Ani does and her life situation, it gets super tiring what kinds of stereotypical character traits get applied to women who have been abused or hurt by men. I still got another sort of queer-esque vibe off her but I still can't tell if that's me reading too heavily into her long and uncomfortable glances at women's bodies and how hard it is to tell those types of moments apart from the kind of alienation you can sometimes feel towards other people's sexual attitudes. That being said, the kind of quiet knife stabbing of the gross businessman while she's drugged out, the flight down the hill with the other girl was pretty heart-pumping. It was fucking good television.

Oh absolutely - last night's direction was far superior to any other episode we've seen so far and the visuals matched the script in a really good way. The sound direction on this episode was also very surreal?

And people thought my feelings about Ani were off the mark, too. Sorry, by episode 2, I was already getting a sense of what kind of trope was being rolled out here. Male writers don't give a slightly tough-as-nails, knife-wielding woman who likes it rough but is emotionally icy just ANY kind of backstory. I'll expand on this in the episode 6 thread when it goes up but I feel slightly vindicated because I'm not surprised by this shit in the slightest. I love Ani with all of my heart but it's not because I think Pizzolato is a good writer.

The episode is going to be out as the normal episode for the week plus a half hour that the stream didn't get (because we were only allowed an hour!)

I would suggest also jotting down less factual things like food or sleep and more if something happened to you emotionally too. A lot of my anxiety is triggered by something happening that my brain doesn't know how to cope with on some basic level and so it just spirals out. Walking back to what the source of that is, which is sometimes buried in a million former events, is hard but that's definitely how I worked on it in therapy. Not sure if it works like that for depression though.

I found the convo about employee housing interesting as someone who lived in employee housing for a prison. It definitely is weird, I will say that.

As someone who caught wind of him back in those days, I would say the answer is no

Have a suspicion long-time friend is slowly freezing me out for no reason I can fathom. Have been having a slow panicky meltdown for the past 24 hours, currently hate my life and trying not to just lose my shit at work crying.

I feel bad that Eric da Re had to play such a scumbag because he looks pretty cool.

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Becoming parents always seems like a chance for other people to make way too familiar comments about your interior life as if it's public domain, and also give you unasked for suggestions because now you share something in common with them. Least, from my outsiders perspective.

Life has been pretty okay lately but sometimes I forget that okay is tenuous if I don't keep up on things I learned in therapy. The last week or so has been hitting me some shit that freaked me out and I sort of just neglected to assess my mental state about it. same with not getting enough sleep because I've been doing longer shifts so I can bail out early tomorrow. All of this lead up to a panicky, paranoid meltdown this morning. Keeping routines and continuing to TALK about my feelings vs. stuffing them all up is still something I mess up from time to time and I can see my mental state decay pretty rapidly. But at least it;s not as bad as my anxiety used to be but it was pretty horrible to have the same full-body anxiety feelings I got really used to a few years ago. I still really struggle with paranoia and thinking that all of my friends hate me or are mad because we don't talk as much as we used to but I need to work on this pro-actively vs. reactively fussing and speculating. On the other hand, it takes an immense amount of patience as the other party to effectively deal with your friend constantly asking if you are mad or whatever. The last time I did, my one friend said it was pretty unfair to think that of her and I sort of meekly wanted to just keep saying that it's my brain and I can't help it. I really can't help it and that's the frustrating part of mental illness. I have spent much of my life hiding really awful things from everyone I know and sort of shouldering the emotions to myself and it's made me incredibly unstable and surface-level at times - people who are close to me don't really get an accurate picture of what's going on in my head at any time. So I guess my advice to everyone is to try and maintain a proper sort of eating, sleeping and outside-time schedule if you can because it's way more important to your mental health than you think. Also talk to your friends. Talk to someone. I am thinking that I might need to go back into maintenance therapy at some point soon because I still have issues sometimes addressing my feelings. Talking about my feelings with a therapist is so much easier than any of my friends and consistently hide them from people despite speaking about my feelings on abstract matters all too often (see: feminism). Edit: to be even more optimistic - don't count "backslides" as somehow detrimental to your progress because honestly even missteps are still like, in a higher place than where you were before, you have gained more wisdom and experience to cope and manage. Sometimes we get off course but you do it with more skill to get back on it.

gator is a popular corruption of 'gater, aka gamergater As I have found out personally, it's very hard to get police to actually move on internet violations of restraining orders.

Thank you for listening! Talking to Cara was a really big deal for us since both of us love her work.

I have broached the topic with my mom, dad, stepmom and neither my stepdad or sister and I suspect it'll stay that way. They are pretty liberal but I also have never really had to confront them with anything but dating men (because I have never told them when I was dating women or otherwise) and I don't talk to my extended family. Everyone in my extended family doesn't appear to be queer on any level so I guess I AM the gay (well bisexual) cousin.

The funny thing about that is just that the idea that feminists HATE sex is born of some really savvy right-wing propaganda dating back to the 80s plus the whole idea of feminists wanting to strike down objectification and sexual exploitation. But given that men can't even fathom sex outside of that kind of image, it is interpreted as "all feminists hate porn" "all feminists hate sex/are prudes" "feminists believe all men are rapists." Granted, there were definitely strains of some of these things in second wave feminism but it was based on some reasonable logic having to do with power dynamics, which again, men neglect to understand or care about because it puts them squarely culpable and responsible for abusing said power dynamics. I don't like second wave for a lot of reasons, but they were onto some things even if their discourse was rudimentary and overly unnuanced at the time.

The stuff people talk about with regards to rights involving reproduction usually glosses over the fact that many physically disabled women and WOC inmates have been forcibly sterilized for years now.

Note: Author of the article is Kimberle Crenshaw, the originator of the "intersectionality" concept. But all the points are absolutely true: while I believe it was a feint for his beliefs given that he also killed black women, Dylann Roof was acting very much in accordance with racist beliefs about "savage" black men. It's something that white women have been complicit in as well - many black men were lynched for even looking at white women and white women have claimed to be hurt or raped by black men in order to have them jailed or killed. The delicacy of white women is something that is entangled up in white supremacy whether it's white men feeling they need to "protect" white women from them or white women using it as a guise for racist beliefs.

I'd feel sorry for them but that alienation is pretty much the other side of the coin when you hate women so much that you only see them as things you acquire to have sex with and wonder why no one wants to talk to you.