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I think I first saw it on a forum last year used by a bunch of people who obviously hanged out on 4 and 8ch /pol/ boards. Since then it kinda erupted on twitch, reddit, etc and spent a good while being the main 'dank meme' everyone ironic and edgy liked. Since then I mostly just see it used by alt right trump people. I think I've seen it go from being used by super hard core /pol/ people to the milder trump people.

This was an edit but I'll turn it into a larger post. We also have a couple of secret weapons, hopefully a stacked deck.. Ben's Dad is a banker and while he's usually doing regional farming investments he'll hopefully have the literacy that we'll need to navigate some of the language. His fam will also hopefully help out for a little while (maybe the first year). Second I have an aunt who recently started sending us some money so we could start a savings account to buy a house with; she's recently bought a house herself and what she'll hopefully continue to give (for a short while at least) would also offset the cost. Then I have another aunt who is in the wider property game who can offer learned advice. I have a business uncle who i can also get in touch with. Two cousins of mine work for Inland Revenue (IRD is our IRS) so we get cool tax advice hopefully. Finally a cousin of mine has experience as a realtor which should be valuable going in. Anyway with my aunt giving me a fund to buy already and the cost of renting so high (things in general are expensive in NZ) this feels like something to grab with both hands. For me especially since my mum has rented since I was two, my dad on and off. Mum's dying in the next few years (reasonable estimate in the next 2-10) and I'm estranged from my Dad so the next year or two is kind of one of the best times to have all my family nearby to get set up and really independant. She already feels she's failed and done too little for everyone and it'd also be a big win if she dies feeling like we have some certainty in our lives, like we're going somewhere. I know that last part isnt a reason to get myself saddled with hundreds of thousands in mortgages and enter a somewhat risky venture with my partner of five years (have lived together all 5); which is why we'll hopefully approach this with the right amount of care. It would still be completely amazing if we could accomplish that in time for her to be around for it. Things like Sleeper tax rises, existing environment issues, maintenance needs, and the importance of an independant opinion are all really good things to keep in mind. The first three of those especially are things I simply wouldn't have the experience to really look for.

I recently went through Indiewire's best movies of the past 6 years and picked about 40 or so movies to watch over the next year. I need to be really generous because i normally dont watch films any more but I'm happy to take the long way around.

Interest will be about 4-5% depending on what we go with. Variable interest starts at 4.35% and fixed term interest is things like 4.65 for sixths months before being reviewed. $1300 a month is interesting because there are many places where if we rented we'd pay $300 (dirt cheap hovel, or a piece of a nice place, or nice but out of the way) to $550 a week. The place we're at right now with family is $700 p/w and it's a nicely spaced, recently renovated ex-council flat. So renting can feel like burning money. I have to go right now but Yo's post is pretty interesting and we'll keep that in mind!

Finally gotten onto Two Dope Queens and oh its soo good. Starting to check out Harmontown but at a length of over two hours I'm not sure if I'll be a regular listener. I really prefer shorter podcasts.

So my boyfriend and I are currently living in a shared flat arrangement with my mum and my sister. We've all lived by ourselves before so we know what its like to manage a place ourselves and we're at a point where all of us are going to move apart next year and start on the next part of our life plans. Well Ben and I were starting to look for a flat for next year when he (then) I just had the epiphany that we're at a point for the first time where we could just buy a house instead of getting caught in another renting trap. So we're feeling pretty excited/ambitious as we're starting to check out 1 bedroom apartments. We're both leaving schooling this/next year and if even one of us gets a starting (out of uni) wage of 40k a year we'll be able to borrow for a place around 275k. Plus with a first home buyer plan we just have to get to 10% of the deposit rather than 20-40 like it normally is. The big thing though is that with that scheme we're going to be living at the place we choose for at least 7 years because of first home buyers. So a lot of excitement as we look over the next few months.

I'm hoping the Amoeba make it back; being able to see the entire galaxy from the start was such a nice trait to have. Also running a galactic space empire as a single cell species was fun.

Been listening to BadBadNotGood and The Internet a lot lately. Also I've started getting into UK Grime MC's like and again. Also about to check out Vince Staples.

I don't agree and that's just how I tease out my opinions when I'm not 100% how I feel about a thing. I liked Drive and what I saw of Only God Forgives but I'm a big fan of The Gos. Apparently Refn's pulling a lot of influence from his friend Alejandro Jodorowsky but it's just not working for me here.

RTJ did a fantastic collab with DJ Shadow

I saw Neon Demon last night and I kind of hated it. The scene compositions were pretty and it felt like it was trying to have the film be as surreal as possible but it felt like either there wasn't enough substance to help the style or the style wasn't done well enough to carry the lack of substance. It didn't really help that for me a lot of the scenes just felt like 'Oh he wanted all the pretty naked girls to do this now' which made some sense after the fact that the director is really into old shocksploitation movies, but I don't think it worked for me here though. Plus a main character interaction is another riff of a predatory lesbian trope which just felt like a let down to me even it was supported by the theme. I like surrealist movies but I guess there's usually a subtext to go along too even if the movie is mostly style. Maybe this was deliberately basic but it didn't feel right for me.

I'm watching 10 Cloverfield Lane and John Goodman is doing a really scary scary version of my Dad right now. Horror wise it's making my skin crawl atm.

I am actually doing a thing on this I was just really stumped last time!

It'd be nice if we had more squad based puzzle/shooters like that Republic Commando: Star Wars game. Maybe a FEAR reboot where you play one of the psychic commanders with squads of clones. Some of these Warhammer Left For Dead clones migth have done better as squad games too..

Yeah I was wondering why that name was tickling me. Sounds super fun. Deus Ex is another easy touchstone for it. My short impression of their group (from a handful of episodes) was that the players enjoyed enabling each other to do things in their games so maybe they are just a more conflict averse group? Some of these are going for a different emotional tenor I guess. You just reminded me of another game that's also more of a gristly thought exercise called Dog Eat Dog. Like The Quiet Year I think I first heard about it on Shut Up and Sit Down and it sounded interesting/terrible. Basically the game divides players into roles like Colonial Overseer and Native Islander and the mechanics of the game direct the colonial players to oppress the islanders through events like the banning of the local religious festival, or increased exploitation of resources. It's not meant to be a barrel of laughs but it's designed as an easy experience to get into for players who may not have spent much time with board games before. Anyway it seems like it could be a good recommend for a bunch of conscientious, thoughtful people to play some time. Also a very demonstrative tool for teaching (younger) people how injustice & oppression can become normalised. p.s Play By Post sounds really fun! I enjoyed the dnd game SmartJason was running earlier this year but having to be awake during the very early, hours of Sunday 10am-1pm was just killing me :/

I found this on the same site as monsterhearts there's The Quiet Year where a small group of people play as a post apocalyptic town's council as they try to prepare their town for whatever dangers may be coming. Anyway it sounds like it could be fun for 2+ people for about $8 Also I keep hearing good things about tabletop simulator so you might want to try that out SBM.

Apparently Quake Pros have been consulted while they're making the game and it sounds like they're happy with it? I wouldn't be worried over whether they'll make the game newcomer/quick play friendly. Hero abilities sounds like a step into making the game welcoming to newcomers + they'd be stupid to only cater to the few thousand people that still play quake live/cpma/reflex. Supposedly the movement at this stage feels 'heavy' atm. Like Doom's movement, but that trailer also shows high speed movement and some air control so whatever they're doing it seems mostly fine.

It looks pretty good tbh. The champion powers idea in quake feels weird but I'll keep an open mind. The biggest thing for me is that the air control and momentum is hopefully similar to QL or Reflex.

Sigh. I just had this horrible dream that my mum had decided to have herself euthanized one day and basically she'd told me about what was going to happen the day before and by the time I'd woken up the next day it'd already happened, her room had been cleaned up and was mostly boxes and I had to go over to the mortician's to get her cremated and bus back home with her ashes and a little box of her jewelery. All the while no one else was going to be there and no one else was going to call. Anyway Ive just woken up with this sick feeling in my stomach and I dont think I can make most of my classes today because I'm almost at ths point where I feel ill over this. Ever since she was diagnosed with breast cancer five years ago I've always been in the dark about her health. She waited a whole year in case it screwed up with uni exams. But even now she's always been way more forthcoming with my older siblings and I basically just hear tidbits even though I live closer and see her way much more than they do. So when I hear that her liver is shutting down and her cholestrol is too high, and that the doctors think all conditions are ripe for her to get liver cancer next; I'm thinking well how far along is really? This week I get one of the first frank conversations with her about her health and find out that she's going to get regular screenings for tumours there, but they cant detect tumours under half a centimetre but once she has any there, and when/if they grow to five cm then she'll only have about three years to live. Thing is I've known she was/is going to die while I'm still young for years. But I guess its really hitting me now that there's a good chance she wont see me get a real house/non student flat, she wont see me get a real job, or any other kind of adulthood stability other than my partnership with Ben and even then everyone just sees us as big kids anyways. She's the most involved family member I have besides my boyfriend's. When she dies her sisters and brothers are still going to be distant, my brother will still be abroad with his family, my sister will still be an undependable jerk, and I never want to meet my Dad again. So in a lot of ways I do feel like I'm just going to carry her death in a little box with some jewelery in it, and it sucks.

I'm trying to give Banshee another go and I'm liking it a lot more this time. I couldn't really get into it the first time because it didn't seem that believable and some other things were going on that made me indirectly not like the show. Anyway once I just accepted everything about the show and where it wants to go I have to say it's really good.

Ah I love that show! I wasn't sure about that during the first series but the second season is really strong. There's an episode in there where Eva Green goes off to learn some of her mysticism and it's just so friggen good. The show does do a bit of a weird rehash of certain plots by the final season but it's a short series and it keeps things fun enough to not outstay their welcome. Oh and they end up doing a pretty good deconstruction of the old man's British explorer archetype but it is a shame that they don't really develop the African guy beyond friendly sidekick.

He was so adamant about it I didn't want to protest.

Yeah a friend of mine was selling me on them the other day saying that Die Antwoord were the South African Little Big. Randomly came back to this album today. It's still nice and weird. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NuCLu5yEhmA New song from a fun funk/hiphop band. I was at their gig last week and it was really fun, it was a horrible stormy night but they still managed to have a pretty crowded bar. Oooh yes please

I had this amazing night last night that let me reconnect with a bunch of old people and it just turned into this wonderful night of music, friends, family, and laughter. It's been a long time since I've had something like that and it really refreshed me and reminded me that I do still have some great friends in the people I haven't seen for years and that I can be this person and live my life in a way that I've just let atrophy over the years. It feels weird talking about it but it really was just one of those nights that you end up storing away to fuel who you are and want to be for the next long while.

I've been trying to find the right shape for a story. It's going to be pretty different from the ideas I first had, but from what I ran through in my head the other day it seems to flow a lot better than what I was going to have before. Just wish that it'd all come out while I had a pen near by.