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  1. Posted

    I feel like I've been living in Trumps presidency longer than a month. It feels like a fucking lifetime, and what a cluster fuck of a month it's been.

     

    The impromptu press conference was something out of bizzaro world.

  2. Posted

    I'm enjoying the book.

     

    The time and perspective jumping can really fuck with you. It'll be perfectly fine for a few paragraphs and in the next one jump in time or character abruptly and go back. It makes it hard to keep it.


    Also, the change in from 3rd to it being written like a police report or an omniscient narrator whose reminiscing or contemplating the many moves a character could make in a certain scene send you for a loop.

  4. Posted

    Who knows indeed.

     

    I'm still a Mexican citizen and a permanent resident here. My wife and I are worried that if something shit goes down with Mexico and the wall, that there might be a ban or more lock downs on immigration from Mexico.  I also wonder how it's going affect the Mexican economy and my family who still lives there.

     

    This has been a cluster fuck of a week.

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    Jazz:

    Chet Baker - Sings

    John Coltrane - Coltrane/Prestige 7105

    Miles Davis & John Coltrane ‎– Live In Stockholm 1960

    Duke Ellington - Money Jungle

    Dizzy Gillespie - Manteca

    Charles Mingus - Blues & Roots and The Black Saint & the Sinner Lady

    Moondog - Moondog

    Sun Ra - Supersonic Jazz

    Ornette Coleman - The Shape of Jazz to Come

    Cannonball Adderley - Know What I Mean?

    Horace Silver Trio and Art Blakey - Sabu

     

    Can't go wrong these

  11. Posted

    It's amazing what's happened these last couple days: Cruz dropping, Trump saying Cruz's father was part of the JFK assassination and now Kasich suspending his campaign making Trump the presumptive nominee. 

     

    I feel like Bizzaro world has invaded the GOP and US.

  12. Posted

    High-Rise is a roller coaster slow ride through a world where the Internet and personal computers were never invented, but there's a big surplus of concrete and real estate and everybody has a brain tumor.

    There's a really funny scene 2/3 in, but it may require watching some of the garbage that comes before to make it work. It's not bad on the whole, but not too good either. It's an experience, I guess.

    Speaking of Wheatley, he's remaking Wages of Fear. 

     

    I didn't know how to feel about it at first, but now, I'm really excited to see it.

  13. Posted

    Man, yesterday had some high highs and low fucking lows.

     

    I went to a place called the Merc (a gay bar in Sacramento) with my friend to have a few drinks and relax. Now, I'm not gay and I go there with my friends (some who are) because it has great drinks and atmosphere. So I went there and we met and talked to two guys next to us. They were old gents and they were funny dudes. One of them keeps hitting on me hard and hinting at sex. Fair enough, I turn him down and tell him I'm straight and why I come here. He has no problem with it. As the night progresses, he keeps touching my knee and thigh. Not in a sexual way, but touchy messy way. Whatever, some people are touchy-feely and he knows where I stand. At one point he moves up my thigh and starts touching my dick and I just freeze. I am completely uncomfortable and violated. And he does it once again. I'm completely fucking violated. I'm frozen and can't talk. So after the second time, I say it's time to go and get food with my friend. 

     

    I felt skeevy and uncomfortable the entire night. I could still feel his hands on my dick and it's been on the back of my head ever since. 


    I felt like I should have told him to stop touching me when he touched my knee. Maybe it's my fault for being at a gay bar (though it's become a mixture of orientations). I don't know how to feel and I felt like crying a bit this morning. Maybe I should have been more forceful? I don't know. 

    Am I crazy? I set up boundaries and I'm okay with touchy-feely people (one of my good friends is one). I thought that was he was at first, but fuck. 

     

    I can't get this incident out of my head.

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    Definitely.

    Empire of Cotton is jammed packed with information, but the way it's written, fact after fact after fact, makes it a tedious read. I love my non-fiction to be told through characters. The characters used to ground the reader while using them to parse out information. Roger Crowely's Conquers did a great job of giving the reader larger than life characters while using them to tell how the Portuguese started the first global economy and took over the Indian Ocean trade.

    I have The Half Had Never Been Told on pre-order and I'm excited to read it. There's been a lot of great books on slavery and its repercussions.

  19. Posted

    Reading a few books right now and it's hard trying to balance them.

    Future Crimes talks about bout how easily exploited and hacked our technology is and there's barely any safeguard.

    Dreamland is such a painful read. Talk ks about the opiated addiction around the rust belt. it's painful because I got to see it first hand growing up. Many of friends got hooked and destroyed their lives.

    Empire of Cotton explores the evolution of capitalism through cotton.

  20. Posted

    I did! And thank you for answering them.

     

    I was in a weird position back then and couldn't go back to school. Now things have changed and I'm good to go. I just wish Sac State was too. Grumble grumble. Hahah

  21. Posted

    http://www.npr.org/sections/goatsandsoda/2016/04/21/474847921/the-arctic-suicides-its-not-the-dark-that-kills-you

     

    For Anda, there were two choices. He could stay what he was, a village kid who spoke Greenlandic and didn't fit in, or he could change and become a Danish-speaking city kid indistinguishable from the others. At school the message was clear: Danish-speakers were better than Greenlandic-speakers; Danish stuff was cooler than Greenlandic stuff. Village kids were inferior to city kids.

     

    "I was good at integrating into my class." He sighs. He knew he had to leave parts of his old self, his Kangeq self, behind. Or at least bury them beneath a more Danish exterior.


    "That was how I survived." He forced himself to adjust.

     

    But there were those who couldn't adjust.

  23. Posted

     I had a pretty horrible realisation that I wasn't as important to my friends as they were to me.

    Its happened to me a handful of times. It's shitty, but you drop 'em motherfuckers and move on. 

     

    For me, with every cycle of friends I've gone through, they've gotten better because I've gotten to know myself and what I want out of a friendship. The friends I've made in California are way better than my friends in Cincinnati. Don't get me wrong, I love my old crew in Cincinnati, but I devolve to my younger self--I think my crew does too, not just me--when I see them. It's nice for nostalgia reasons but all the hard work I've down to better myself goes down the tubes. I hope all that rambling makes sense.

     

    In other news... I'm fighting terrible allergies and a cold and hoping my appeal for Sac State goes through. I've decided to go back to school to finish my bachelor's degree in outdoor parks and recreation with a minor in history. I'm really excited. :D

  24. Posted

    Both writers (Bouie & Rensin) do a great job describing the problems with the Democratic party. 


    It's just not one thing but a mixture of things that drove out white working class, but Bouie's reasoning I think really hits at what drove most WWC in droves. It happened with my father and the WWC that surrounded me growing up (anecdotal evidence, I know). He was a huge Democratic man until the Democratics started moving more towards blacks and he thought he was getting screwed because he was white and blacks were getting it good in welfare. A lot of the WWC people I hung out with or talked too thought the same. The smugness was one part of the drove them away, but race played a huger role.

  25. Posted

    Great read into the Alt-Right movement. Also, be sure to check out most the links within the article.

     

    http://www.vox.com/2016/4/18/11434098/alt-right-explained

     

    What's a bit sad is that the writer didn't really delve or talk about how "extreme" music helped spread the Alt-Right's beliefs.

     

    I remember when I got into to the black metal, industrial and neo-folk scene, the Alt-Right's beliefs were being played with--bands playing with fascist and nazi imagery--or beginning to gain ground. Hell, that love for nationalism and traditionalism has been a big part of the black metal scene since it's beginnings.

     

    The Alt-Right beliefs beginnings really mixed well with those genres--I think it mixed well because it was a fringe mixture of ideas mixed with fringe genres of music and people. It also gave people a feeling of empowerment, place and to an extent, gave them an identity; they knew why they felt like outsiders and knew who to target. The black metal, industrial and punk scenes embraced the Alt-Right's beliefs with open hearts. It's fascinating/depressing to see this movement grow through the years.

     

    Hell, I almost was a part of it and at times fallen into the bullshit they spouted. It still gets me to this day! I've spent so much time--my late teens, early and mid-twenties--in those genres and being surrounded by those beliefs, it's tainted me.


    EDIT: I'd be a fucking liar if I didn't listen to some of those bands that played or are white nationalists or alt-right. I've moved away heavily from them since, but man, they are a part of me whether I like it or not. Fuck this white supremacist world and the compromises I've had to make to live in it.