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Jut added two more films to my list that I want to see this year

Coffee and banana nut bread. Delicious.

Man, I've been having a somewhat hard--maybe hard isn't the word I should be using, maybe problematic time with nostalgia. The reason I'm in California is because of my ex. We met online, we fell in love and I moved from Cincinnati to Vacaville and then we moved together to Sacramento. We were together for almost five years and we lived together for three. We were incredibly close to each other and shared a lot of hobbies and interests. The relationship fell apart hard in '14 and we split and haven't talked to each other since. I moved on since then, but as of recently the thought of wanting her with me has hit me. This is especially true when I'm watching anime or playing a video game that I know she would have enjoyed. Those thoughts and feelings would hit me and I would get sad that she wasn't here enjoying this with me and then it would go away. It's a pain in the ass and I know I'll get past it. But I need to get this off my chest and I wonder why, two years later, it's hitting me. Maybe I haven't fully healed or recovered from it or that such an experience is something you never forget and the feelings of wanting to go back so that things stay the same is just a part of life. Well, it is a part of life, but I don't know. There are moments where I get overwhelmed by it and I cry a bit and I move on and enjoy what I'm doing.

Wish I was making more money, but other than that, life is good. I'm feeling more confident about myself and I've made a new friend too. We've been hanging out a good amount and we're going to a bar this weekend where they their shots are triples for the price of a shot.

Slowly getting back into anime. Right now I'm watching Erased, Beautiful Bones, The Perfect Insider and re-watching Dennou Coil (one of my favorites) and Serial Experiment Lain.

My comics came in

I'm jealous. I've been dying to see that film. And there aren't a lot of movies that deal with the holocaust properly. All I can think of is Phoenix, The Pawnbroker, Shoah and Son (even though I haven't seen it, I know it will).

Started watching Prison School and it has a Cromartie High School aesthetic and feel to it that I'm loving. They're moments in PS that have made me laugh out loud and it's been a while since an anime has done that to me. I think the last ones to do that to me were Ouran and Princess Jellyfish.

New comic by Eleanor Davis is out and y'all best get on that http://www.youthindecline.com/product/frontier-11-eleanor-davis

I've checked out some of their stuff, solid shit. I've always had an interest in those subjects, but now I have some money and time to invest in them.

I'm starting to get in deep into the occult, mysticism, alchemy, Kabbalh and the like. Just used some of my tax refund to get some books those subjects. I also got these: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0500517789 http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0500518106 http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1937128482 http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/3836549360 I'm so fucking excited to get them.

Watching Overlord and like the other two posters here have said, it has a ponderous and ridiculous dick-measuring feel to it that I'm thoroughly enjoying.

Awesome, thank you for that link

Not saying that you do that or are that, homie.

Christ y'all. Y'all are to up on their shit. But then again, I used to be like that and I just decided not to be that obsessive person and learned not to worry about it. You have to force that change. It also helps that my friends aren't huge texters; well, they are but not towards me. So I can go days without communication with anyone. When I'm in a relationship I rather not be in constant communication, too much work and I like that we have lives and conversations outside of us. I would not want to be with someone who constantly wanted me to converse with them; I like my silence and time to myself. I think another thing that stopped me was when I would talk to a lot of women, their exs or bfs or husbands that did that were also highly possessive and jealous and I wanted no part of that shit.

NGE also hit me when I'm starting to get into Gnosticism, the Kabbalah, and Paull Tillich

I finally did it. I finally saw Neon Genesis Evangelion and The End of Evangelion. What a raw, emotional experience. It was life affirming and depressing and I loved every minute of it. Fuck me

Superhero fans get on Copra http://bergenstreetcomicspress.bigcartel.com/products Think Suicide Squad, Marvel Street heroes mixed with a noir, crime filled narrative. Here's a few samples of the comic

You can always use it when you need to relax. Hell, after a stressful day at work I smoke a bit or have a few drinks. Aderall is okay, didn't do much for me. Ritalin really made me focused and on point, but it also made me feel like a automaton, as if I was on cruise control and my body just took over. I hate that feeling, but I got a lot done. In other news I was able to sleep off my hangover. I went out with someone last night and thought it was a date. As the night progressed I saw different signals and I asked her if it was just an outing or date; it was an outing. Oh well, I still had a great time with her and we danced. We're going out drinking this weekend and plan on getting hammered. Haha

Can't get enough of Saint Pepsi

This is the most adorable thing in the world

Stuck in the last hedge maze puzzle.