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Done! DONE WRITING MY TOUR! A three month long thinking and writing process that I finally finished. Jesus, fuck me, Christ, I'm done. I will no longer be tour guide trainee. I'm transforming to being a tour guide and be dishing out knowledge to motherfuckers that come to the capital building. Fuck me, that took a bit, but I'm so happy and proud.

Here are some of the videos I talked about yesterday: Also, last was a success; I thought it was. I spilled a beer on a fellow Thumbs, got some delicious pizza and ended the night with mouth savoring ice cream sandwiches.

Just got done with my shower and I'll be there late 6ish

So we got a cookie pizza at work today:

Awesome! Can't wait to see y'all

Surprised there wasn't a thread on this. Well, let's talk all things horror! Right now I'm playing two games: one is very low-key, atmospheric, Lynch-influenced called Sylvi; you play as Juliette Waters, an EVP-specialist exploring an old family park that's been closed since 1971 because of a landslide. The other is called Uncanny Valley:

Lordy, it's too gray and brown, needs more color!!! It's too colorful, needs more gray and brown! Video gmars

Dem shades of brown upon brown

A few things: - I'm excited about the mini-thumbs meet-up this Saturday at Davis!! - My med, Gabapentin, is slowly not working and making me horribly constipated; also, it's making me really angry--which, I'm glad I've learned how to control and regulate--and making me think of killing myself--don't worry, i''m not, another thing I've learned to control and regulate. It's also making me moody. Now the anger and moody I can handle, but having suicidal thoughts after a couple years of not having them is raising big red flags. So, I'm slowly weaning myself of it and I have a meeting with my pysch on the 30th; I plan of bring these things up and hoping to move to other meds and alt-ways of dealing with these things. I've always been an emotional person, which, has made me very empathetic and sympathetic towards other people. There is a cost though: it wears me out mentally and emotionally, but I've grow strong enough to deal with it and when to move out, but there are times where I'm worn out. I'm hoping to get better control through these medications and alt-ways. I've also started taking symptom management classes to find healthier ways of expressing and dealing with my shit. -I'm almost done writing my tour for my job!!! I can't wait to start giving tours at the state capital. I really love my new job and I hope to get further into parks & recs. I'm thinking about being a park ranger... -Life is pretty good right now and I can't complain too much. Life is good because I've made it good and had some good fortune befall on me, but mostly me. I'm a lot more mindful and resilient than I've ever been and I see it only getting better. I enjoy getting older: as I've gotten older, life has gotten better and I've grown more stronger and beautiful than ever. All those years of depression and suicide and multiple, horrible nervous breakdowns and social anxiety has made me fucking strong; not only strong, but has made me make moves from moving from an introvert to an extrovert: I've become a goddamn social butterfly--tho, still a bit socially awkward.

Hmmm, I think I can get down with that. In all honesty, I just have to re-watch The Guest again.

Never said those movies weren't masterpieces--They Live is fabulous, fuck the haters--, but there were a good amount of B movie cheese and low budget that were schlock; not all of them of course, but there were many of them. Now this doesn't make them bad or any less important

Boom, this by x10000000000000000000000000000000000 But you can' deny there is a level of schlock in there

idea: post the photos that Remo has taken, then your pictures and then get a third photographer taking a picture of what Remo is taking, of you and the overall environment you two are in. If you want to push this further, get satellite photography of the three of you.

Don't you worry, Cestus, you'll give through it, and when you do, you'll come out stronger. I've dealt with depression, mania, suicide, loneliness and undiagnosed--recently diagnosed--bipolar 1 ever since I was a little kid and I'm still here. Mangela Lansbury really nailed it on how it's like to be with meds; it just allows you to get your shit together and allows those unwanted thoughts and feelings to be more manageable. Also, find a fucking outlet. It's okay to release those negative thoughts/feelings. Try to find someone or something to release what's inside you and don't feel bad about it; don't ever feel bad about yourself and your life; be proud of yourself, even when it's shitty.

Being the cutest kid in the world:

I don't think that the grotesqueness of the film would have been as powerful if it was in color; I think the B&W gives it that power. I LOVE long takes/shots and Hard is filled with them; it's easily to get lost, plot wise, but that fades away as the film continues. I always hear that of Tsai Ming-liang's films. I saw parts of Goodbye, Dragon Inn and man; loneliness, loneliness, and more loneliness that's pervausive through that film. I've been dying to see his recent film, Stray Dogs. most definitely. I enjoyed the film, especially towards the end. Also, maikamonroe, great actor! I love her in It Follows.

I can't wait to see this

Can we do 7? I work that day and I take the bus home and it'll take me a bit to get to Davis. Also, y'all recognize me right away: I'll be the only guy wearing a cute little dress.

Let's do Davis because most the people here are from there and I'm down for next Saturday for a meet up. I was thinking 6:30-7:30pm at meet up at Beer Shoppe, does that sound good? And if this goes well--and I have a feeling it will--maybe we should meet up at Sac and I'll show y'all a nice English pub and taquerias/Ethiopian places to eat

Done and done

I have no idea if I did this right http://doodle.com/97au3v2buamm88aw Meet-up costs, I'll find something else

I'm about to start a Doodle and Meetup for y'all. My work hours are always the same and almost never change (only during meetings they change): 9-5. If we do meet up in Sac, I have some great places in mind for us.

I'm down for either place, but if we're ever in sac, I'll be sure to show y'all some nice places to eat and drink. I'll post my work schedule for the month when I have the chance.

Bump because I'm interested in meeting some thumbs.

As terrible as that situation is, I laughed at this. ---- Life's been pretty good to me. - Changed my mindset and been keeping positive for these last weeks; it's done wonders for my health (mental, emotional, and physically) and my manic depression. - On some meds finally: Gabapentin is a mood stabilizer and has helped calm me down a bit. The sad thing, it's an add-on and it's supposed to work in conjunction with another main med. The main med I was taking was Abilify, but I had to stop taking it because it was making sleep all day and giving me the worst sore muscles. Abilify is suppose to help with my anger and psychosis (this is still in the air) that comes with being manic depressive, but the Gaba and my will power is helping. - I'm enjoying my new job as a tour guide trainee at the state capitol museum. -Been meeting a lot of new people and women too (meeeeow). Haha/ -Going to my first burlesque show tomorrow; I got invited by one of the troupe members--and she's one I'm pursuing and we'll see how it goes.