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You don't happen to have insurance, do you? My insurance would cover that. But maybe that's just living in a socialist utopia.

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Fuck! I'm seriously annoyed again by a single email my CEO just mailed around.

There was this trade fair going on the last 4 days. It's more or less a waste of money and time because we're not really going to get any deals from it. We just need to be there. Anyway, our company is more or less divided into 2 groups, the developers, and the "consultants". The developers have, more or less, been slaving away to develop and support our software. Half of the consultant were wasting time at the trade fair this week. Obviously, the engineers didn't really have time to slack off and visit this trade fair for an hour or so. Anyway, there is this one guy, our "project manager", and decided to go to the trade fair on friday afternoon. This, after one of the consultant came back from the fair because it was more or less dead, and he was wasting his time there. This "project manager" guy still left for the trade fair at around 15:00. Given the fact that this guy is mostly watching youtube movies or tennis during the day, some of us assumed he simply went home (would be the first time he came with a bullshit excuse).

So, about half an hour ago our CEO emailed everybody pictures that he took of our stand, apparently taken around 16:00. Lo and behold, this "project manager" is actually there, doing nothing like the others, and drinking wine. And then the insult to injury included in the email of the CEO, thanking people for their contributions to this tradefair by "ttending the exhibition or by backfilling the regular business tasks in the office".

I really shouldn't have checked my email tonight. I already have a rather short fuse because I'm doing standby support this week. And stuff like this is only going to annoy me even more. I'm always the go to guy when things get difficult or complicated, and that really pisses me off. And when I complain about incompetence of my co-workers (or "less competence" ) I get brushed off that not everybody can be as good as I am.

I really think I should start looking for a new place to work next year. There are a few things I like about this job, but there's a lot of things I don't like, hate and detest. And it's not the actual work, it's the behavior of co-workers, the COs, and the way they work.

I want to put my foot down, and often do. But when talking to the COs I keep failing to keep my foot down. Essentially, I'm a rude, strict but in the end, a nice guy. And I really don't want to put down an ultimatum, if I would even consider putting down an ultimatum I should have a fallback. But when I would look for a fallback, then why bother going for an ultimatum, I'm planning to move already.

I need so way to severely obstruct the flow of the company without setting an ultimatum (in this casem bluffing). Is if possible to go on strike by yourself?

ugh... my weekend is pretty much ruined right now, and the rest of the year is probably not going to get any better considering I'm quite good at keeping these depressions in my head.

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I thought I could send an invoice for some freelance work I did last month, but I just checked my contract and it turns out I misread and can't invoice the customer until the end of December. Whee!

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Oof, subbes :(

I always get thirty days terms or less from clients before commencing. It's only usually the really the big clients like MS that won't go below sixty.

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It's mostly my fault for finishing in a week what they gave me until thanksgiving to do.

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Elmuerte, I would say it's time for you to get out of there. I don't think you'll be able to change the company culture, which is what you don't agree with, with an ultimatum. What exactly would you be demanding? That people are more considerate with you? You could end up with an eggshell situation where everyone just thinks you're being delicate. If the culture of a company doesn't suit you, you're best off leaving altogether. I did, and though I am currently at home doing freelance stuff and being a bum, I don't regret it for a second.

[EDIT] I am not a bum. I'm a jerk.

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Ok, here I go. There's been this wierd conglomerat of changes in my life that are all conected between each other. Basicly, i went from my regular school program to an IB(intenational biccalurate) one, which I enjoy emensly and all, but the thing that I've noticed is that my personality and view of life has changed greatly over the last half of the year. I've almost completely distanced myself from the internet and all things related to it, including this forum and games in general. this may be due to the podcast“s long abstence(it's been the sole reason i kept interest in games anyway), the amount of work I have to do,etc. Now I basicly spend all my free time and money on books and music, and suprisingly i feel much more free doing it than I did before. I'm even thinking of selling my desktop computer and buying a cheap laptop since I'm only using it for internet stuff and writting. It's hard to describe how enfreshing is go out into the wild to just be there without a billion of little things that disturbe you. I'm not saying that i'm quiting internet or something, just that I've greatly repreoritised what i want to do with my life and how willing i am in doing this.

I think this isn't a product of IB, but of the change that happened. It wasn't all enjoyable and easy, but as it is with all changes, good things in life come only from tears and sweat. No shit no roses.

So, this kind of stuff happens to everyone right?

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Totally, things change all the time. Some greater than others. I recently discovered (this summer) that I want to be a reader again, after not really reading a book for something other than school for about 5 years. I also started playing the guitar for the first time in almost 10. Now I'm finding that the time I used to spend gaming usually goes to one of those. I'm still gaming, so it's not quite as drastic as your shift, but I can totally see where you're coming from. Especially if you're young enough to be in an IB program (that's a high school thing, yes?), you'll see a lot more of that kind of shift yet.

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Sleepdance, I absolutely know what you're talking about. There have been a few times in which I was cut off from the internet in my free time and during those months I was way more productive and calmer about things. Internet, and being connected, has a way of creating stress if you're not careful.

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Yeah, I found that the year when I had no home internet and lived off of a leeched wifi signal from the restaurant next to my work was actually really good for me. I got hooked back in at home when I went back to school, as I kinda needed it for that, but cutting yourself off now and then can be pretty healthy.

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Yes, the internet is the worst thing that can happen to you if you actually need to do something. Don't know why I wrote that yesterday but it feels good. Change your lifes folks, it's great.

And IB is a high school thing(18-19 year old), although things are a bit diffrent here compared to Britain or US.

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Ok, here I go. There's been this wierd conglomerat of changes in my life that are all conected between each other. Basicly, i went from my regular school program to an IB(intenational biccalurate) one, which I enjoy emensly and all, but the thing that I've noticed is that my personality and view of life has changed greatly over the last half of the year. I've almost completely distanced myself from the internet and all things related to it, including this forum and games in general. this may be due to the podcast“s long abstence(it's been the sole reason i kept interest in games anyway), the amount of work I have to do,etc. Now I basicly spend all my free time and money on books and music, and suprisingly i feel much more free doing it than I did before. I'm even thinking of selling my desktop computer and buying a cheap laptop since I'm only using it for internet stuff and writting. It's hard to describe how enfreshing is go out into the wild to just be there without a billion of little things that disturbe you. I'm not saying that i'm quiting internet or something, just that I've greatly repreoritised what i want to do with my life and how willing i am in doing this.

I think this isn't a product of IB, but of the change that happened. It wasn't all enjoyable and easy, but as it is with all changes, good things in life come only from tears and sweat. No shit no roses.

So, this kind of stuff happens to everyone right?

You had me until "enfreshing". (Just kidding, I see you're from Slovenia, so I presume English is your second language.)

Did you see this thing I done posted on this very topic?

(Unfortunately every just seemed to respond with "me too!"s :-/ )

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That's terrible. In twenty years time we will all be slaves of some multicorporation (just like in Cloud Atlas, just that we'll be getting our daily dose of twitter instead of soap).

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I doubt that any of the horrible things people predict will actually be that bad if they come to fruition. You have to do a lot of abstraction to be able to justify progress as a bad thing. A typical conversation I've run into is where someone complains about the modern world being more violent than ever, to which I retort, well no, strong statistical evidence shows that the world is dramatically less violent than ever and that people are becoming measurably smarter, to which they reply, "maybe, but at the price of freedom!" The definition of freedom varies wildly from person to person, but it usually has some justification at the end like, "now it's not like I intend to use my guns/money/land/body/children/animals/&c. for evil, but if I want to, that's my right! It's the principle!" I call bullshit. At the point when everyone's supposedly slave to a corporation, that abstraction will be meaningless. Sort of like the concept of the singularity: The point is that it's impossible for us to comprehend the perspective who lives past that point.

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I have just returned from a grueling ride in the inner city of Kleve, under falling darkness, in rising and chaotic traffic, exhausted after waiting the entire afternoon after a delay. Despite all of that, I passed my exam, and am now officially in possession of a Führerschein from the Bundesrepublik Deutschland. Hurrah!

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Going through some depression these past few days. I'm not really emotionally upset, but I'm really sluggish and demotivated and I'm feeling a lot of friction against thinking too hard about anything. I'm trying to channel this into drawing naked pasty guys.

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Ooh, maybe I should try drawing naked pasty dudes. I am pretty sure it is seasonal affective emos in my case. I don't feel like doing shit either. ;(

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I've been struggling massively with motivation all the way through November, for similar reasons I think. I usually find going for a walk somewhere nice and looking for beauty helps my mind accept the change of season, but haven't taken time to do it yet.

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Van Gogh is dead for a reason man. Don't meddle in forces you can't comprehend.

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I just finished a day of school in which my partner (supervising) teacher called in sick 45 minutes before class. This left super inexperienced me (have been in the class for three days) and a hastily called in substitute each teaching about 50% of the day with little to no prep time. At the last minute, I installed the software to run things on a SMARTboard on my laptop and actually got lessons to work. The whole day was a bit of a mess, but the students couldn't tell and that's what matters. I feel pretty good about today, actually. Things were crazy, but I did it. Days like this make me feel like I can actually pull it off in 6 months when I get my teaching certificate. Nothing like a day of crisis to raise your confidence level.

EDIT: It's a grade 1/2 split class, for detail's sake.

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